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i have a lot of sound fears, i have sleep paralysis and my brain does this stupid thing where it warps a bunch of sounds together and swirls it around me and i can't move naturally and it's freaking terrifying
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I remember at least as a child I used to be really scared of anything sudden starting with sh. Whether someone said it, or just a word starting with those 2 letters. This particular sound used to be quite scary to me, more so from evening onwards.
Now there's not a whole lot exactly, but I'm much more able to be scared with something when there's full silence and it's dark outside, AKA, middle of the night. Yup with light perseption that has a say.
They don't scare me necessarily but any time I hear beeps or alarms I don't know what they are for I immediately tense up.
Transkrypcja
I think the reason why I have a terrifying thing with like buzzing is because my birth mother and I both have like a space stinger allergy and my mom was an idiot and lived by a hive so she'd get them in the house all the time. That's what my mom like used to like live in housing before she got messed up even more than she already was. My mom lived by a beehive and it was like in her bathroom wall or something. I don't know what happened. She took forever to get someone to cough but she kept killing them but she killed them in the air so the last thing you hear is their buzzing like died down as they were like falling and that was creepy. So it's more of I'm scared that it's something that's going to sting me or is going to drop dead in a second. My mom was a freaking crazy person so that's why I like freaked out earlier today when Kara kept telling me oh my god there's a fly like right next to your ear like oh my god it's going to eat me and she kept saying oh my god she's attacking me so yeah that's why I have a crazy and of course my sleep paralysis demon like whatever it is. Um puts buzzing sounds in my head whenever I'm having a paralysis episode and it's like oh my god I want to get out like get me out of here so that's my reasoning for hating buzzing.
I'm allergic to wasps, and whenever I hear any sort of low buzzing, I freeze, scared to move at all. My mussles tence, I strain my whole body, and I just lean back in the way my chest is pointing forwards.
I don't know if that's a defense automatism I have, but it always happens.
It happens when someone even so much as walks by behind me, but that's a different story.
Transkrypcja
like I want to tell this story so I was on vacation with my cousin and she was like oh my god don't move like we were so we were walking outside and we were waiting for our uber this is when we went out with like just the two of us so it was me and her and she's a few years younger than me so I was like in charge of her I was six no I was 15 at the time I think yeah I was I think I think I don't know what this was well um she's exactly four years younger so she would have been 11 and I was 15 and we were waiting for our uber that my aunt called for us and then she was like so she's not blind so she was like um uber wasn't here yet thank God but I felt something weird so I was gonna like go and like touch like my back she's like don't you do it because there's a baby wasp climbing on you and I'm like oh my god what the hell like I was actually terrified because like I didn't know if baby wasps wasps what if okay pillow thank you for hitting my wall if baby wasps could sting I I really can someone like light me up can baby I still don't know can baby wasps like still sting you I'm assuming they can I just asked this stupid question but it was like climbing on me and I was like oh my god I don't want to get stung it it it got off me um after a few minutes but I'm like that was the most interesting experience in my life.