About friends, I don't really have a lot on the net due to, reasons. Look at this platform for instance. I was very lucky that years ago I was able to form a friendship with someone on this platform that still lasts but again, I suppose those were the better times of the comunity.
I'm trying to see if I can find more sighted folks on the net, via that's discords or something else I nee to come up with but honestly this might be even harder than doing it IRL, plus, i don't fit into blindy spaces cuz I'm, let's say it in a way group of people won't get offended, too much of a different person for that, which I am proud of I guess. So I guess in the longrun, the net ain't worth it man. I mean there was another friendship which was just a bit strange I guess at that point too, and at the end of the day, what do you know about them.
I tell you, it's a whole new, in my case, really interesting perspective on when you meet a net person IRL. For me it was a positive one but honestly speaking, this might not be the case for everyone at all.

Yeah, I get that. I met this guy I was friends with on the net for a while IRL and found out he was basically a criminal in training. Kinda sad tbh.

Now you made me curious, if you want to share.

Well maybe that's an overexaduration. Turns out he was into drugs and some dark web stuff iirc. Also was a little weird towards his crush but idk how far that goes because I was't there for it.
You don't know them, btw. Not in the wider blind community

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I don’t really mind loneliness — actually, I kind of like being left alone most of the time. That’s when I can listen to audiobooks, play my favourite games, read tons of fanfictions, or just browse the internet.
Although I don’t mind going out sometimes, I really need to be well-rested and have enough energy for it.

Would you consider yourself an introvert?

Lol can confirm this, if I consider myself an introvert, then he is the true definition of one :D

I don't mind being lonely sometimes. Only for a couple hours.

Ok, but that is normal and just,good. I appreciate the participation but would be interested in more answers based on the actual OP again.

To be honest, I also realised over time that there's another thing that can make me personally feel lonely and, maybe it's strange, maybe not.
It's if I miss someone. A lot. There it wouldn't really matter much being alone or even surrounded by a few friends. Guy friends in particular make no difference. If you know me you'll just instantly recognize something or I just as dumm as I am spit out stuff and how I feel because at home I had to bare it on my shoulders constantly because I can't expect much there.
TLDR: It makes me feel lonely if a certain person my mind can't stop thinking about for whatever reason isn't around. There it doesn't make a big difference if people truely liking you are around at all.

I have to agree fully. I've been there, done that, so I know exactly what you're saying and how you feel.

In fact, no sense denying that, I live through that now. A lot since months honestly, though the person shifted just recently to someone else, can you imagine that...

Yuck-a-doodles! I feel your pain, man!

But guess what, back some years I could constantly vent it out to someone that since over a year ago or so just kepped disappearing and stuff, kinda leaving me on my own. It was that connection where you get answers that, while not being do this do that mode all of the times, it'd still help you just when you know someone truely listens and not just reads/sits with you being silent, the wall might be as good in that particular bit, maybe even better. But hey, as for trying with anyone else, let's use chat gpt to answer now, why bother writing people answers! I mean that's what people nowadays start doing, apparently...:(
So basically, my life goes in the corse that, I realise more and more what I had and what I should've thanked God a bunch for, now those things disappear step by step where probably even a year ago life was better and I wouldn't have said so that time. I wonder if there's gonna be that point where it turns back into a better direction, eventually. I mean now it even goes on to my physical health where I have backpain since several weeks now and I already complain about it like some kid. Lol I'm cooked.
And maybe that's obvious but this also caused me to get a quick temper sometimes, if you say it that way, or get the frustration type anger where I think f it, if you can't stand me letting it out go away, problem is I show bits of that in public, I think. Public in the context of outside my tiny circle.
It probably hurts more knowing that you're the one having so much that'd need putting down, while others wouldn't need you to be there as a listener. From people who do interact with me I heard I'm a pretty good one. But seems I won't get to use that.
K idk where I'm going here, this is offtopic and my intent wasn't to actually go deeper than this in here. But ehh.

Well, life can throw out good and bad surprises, or just plug along. For your sake I do hope it turns around again.

People used to say, when I was lonely and depressed, okay, the depression is back for several reasons, they'd say, God is the answer. Just lean on him and he'll give you all you need. I don't mind telling ya that this made me feel even lonelier and more depressed.

Maybe what will happen is that God will show you a new social situation or you may see some opportunity to improve your situation in some way, large or small.

As for the back pain, it might be a good idea to have that checked out. I'm serious!

Ye. It's the typical bla bla of being that O I should move much more, and how I'd only sit at the pc 24/7 or some crap, so my fault with the pain.
As for going to the doc, they're convinced that won't be the solution and me personally strongly disliking it so meh, what should I say...
Honestly, that with God is the thing. People say he can actually help, o he did miracle a b c but on the other side didn't the bible incurrage, and clearly command us to strengthen each other in times of need? Or what did God create connections for in the first place. Sure I need to get to establish a better relationship and prayer life and then they say it magically works, haha, but seriously, people lean on God as an excuse as to not need to help you. Whenn really, human attention, once I had that a month ago in a way from someone I expected less, truely, made me realise how messed up this was and me just trying to except it. If my eyes were a small river that day I wouldn't exagerate. Sure. Humans can't fix all problems. What they can do, however, is give effection. Speak words of the good kind when everything in, well, me in that case, would say else. Sit and understand, respect.

Yes, human interaction is the, yes, duty we all have, but alas, not too many subscribe to it.

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Could you please actually formulate yourself properly? What, should we do with, nothing.