There are people who I talk to online who I care about. And 2 relatives. One I see now and then. This doesn't stop me from having deeper longings for a deeper friendship or relationship. Just my thoughts. But glad that you care. To the last poster.

well without the certain poster 38 until 40 things may be even worse for me as they are now... :d

Let's revive this topic because I can. What I can also say after having lost a friend since a while and struggeling to keep another friendship alive, that this makes me feel even more lonely. Especially if I get nice words once but then I have to chase that friendship. It's not fun and I'm trying to find out if it's still worth it or not.

i also feel like i'm a burden to everyone.
-- (ArcticMoon):
Yes, I'm in a similar situation. When she nees help,, I'm always there for her because what a friend I'd be if I didn't help. But if I'm the one who needs help, noone is there for me, because I'm a burden for everyone.

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sometimes when I'm really sick, I can wrap my arms around my shoulders, I don't know how to explain it, I have quite long arms, I just cross them and my palms are behind my shoulders. I also have long hair, I can hide my face in my hair and imagine that someone with long hair is hugging me :). about sharing problems, for some reason I don't really trust diaries, so just sometimes, when there is a real need for this, I can imagine that I am talking to God, or some other entity, and share my problems. i know this is as stupid as possible, but i've lost most of my trust in people lately, so it's a way out for me, i guess.

for short-term situations when I feel unwell and feel I have no-one to talk to probably nothing but sometimes if it's really hard to me, I fall into a sleep.

I thing that sleep does not only help to heal us physically, but also to improve our mental wellbeing. When i wake i can see more perspecitves and possible solves. :)